Here in northern Indiana, it doesn’t take much talk of snow before the conversation turns to the great blizzard of January 1978. I was visiting Goshen, Indiana, when that incredible storm hit. We were cooped up indoors for days. Unforgettable, even for a young child. It was quite overwhelming.
The snow storms of the past few days have been as bad as I can remember for a long time. A good time to sit at the kitchen table and write. Here’s a sestina with my musings on snow and change and hope. Wherever you are tonight, stay warm!
I was a witness, a passenger, a caged bird, for the great snow
of seventy-eight. I lived through the cost and chaos, saw the way
the windswept landscape shifted so much you couldn’t find
your bearings ten feet from your front door. One savage, billowing drift
that month took my grandmother’s home in its teeth. This was all new
to me, freshly arrived in these parts, awe-struck as the blizzard ground
on and on outside. Her patio doors, glazed from ground
to ceiling, once so inviting, were now struck white as snow,
the color of dreams, of fate, of oblivion. I never knew
till that awful recognition, how God could wipe away
all trace of humanity from the earth, could let us just drift
free, one tiny speck on the ocean that no one would ever find
again, if not for grace. Appalled, I realized I couldn’t find
my face in the glass, could see no prints on the ground.
Unknowing, I had become a son of Noah, shut in to drift
for days on end, counting my breaths, watching the snow
rise like a flood, dumb as an animal, with no way
to open the hatch, to breathe fresh air, no word of new
land. I learned the fickleness of hope. Perhaps this is what God knew
in shutting the door so tight on Noah and his clan… That to find
a new life, one must first let go for good of the old, give way
to the swelling tide, feel one’s feet swept from the ground
and lose the stars, become a tiny fleck of wind-blown snow,
yielded to providence. One must be willing to drift
on moonlit seas, beyond all maps. How else to learn that we cannot drift
beyond the compass of the divine? Of the one who knew
us long before the morning stars first sang. How else find that there is no
place that we can go where God is not, and no place we will not find
that tell-tale laughter, light as paw prints upon new ground,
the wise dragon voice that tells us others have been this way
before, and this new thing will not lead to death. There was no way
I could have known this forty years ago, before that awful snow drift,
no way to comprehend the majesty of creation as it swept the ground,
no way to know of love, and loss, and life again in better lands. I only knew
that I was a child, one tiny stowaway aboard this ark. It would be years till I would find
the sun and truly trust it. First I would need to climb and fall and climb again, to learn to love the snow.
Now I have returned. Tonight, half a lifetime away, I stand before the window as a new
blizzard hides both sky and ground. Once more, I feel my feet begin to slip, but now I find
no terror. Instead, I laugh and let my soul drift high, yielded to grace, to change, to snow.
Dear Andrew, Thanks so much for this poem – so rich in observation, in ruminations on your own live, in spiritual insight (I believe, truth). You help me see your life journey newly; and you write so very well. I am proud of you! And I love you intensely, Dad
And thank you for braving the snow this morning to clean our drive. Hope your back is OK.
On Mon, Jan 6, 2014 at 8:38 PM, Penguin Poems
i like the bit on noah…the learning to let go in order to embrace new life…i have found this to be true in my own life…
the comment from your dad as well brought tears to my eyes…
be safe…we just have the bitter cold there…pretty sure yours is colder…our wind chill is only -24
Brother – great reminiscences and even better lessons learned.
Yes, please – to all my freezing friends – stay warm and safe!
Mosk in California, where when it’s 55 degrees it causes a mild panic
I can relate–here in So Fla–48 degrees is rampant panic and down coats…
Andrew, Love how you used “drift” like a refrain–so many applications of drift in snow, in sea, in your mind…what a story you created, I was completely swept away (drifting?) 🙂
I also have a take on the weather today.
Enjoyed reading your poem, with its use of the Noah story.
Indeed a snow storm is the right time to write a sestina..quite hard work… and the result is great.. I like the progression where the pace is just right to get your thoughts through.. the paralell to noah.. being isolated in that snowstorm just like a boat at sea…
We’ve been talking to some relatives from Indiana – quite the blizzard and cold spell this year indeed. It would be frightening, if you didn’t know what to do, or had enough heat and supplies to get through. Stay warm and safe back there! Wishing you all the best!
Wonderful, Andrew. Especially the “One must be willing to drift on moonlit seas beyond all maps.”
fantastic – I am breathing in snow here
As a child, I was always awestruck by the snowstorms in MI during the winter. I love this piece, so vivid. 🙂
Gosh, I’ve experienced snow but not to this degree. So strange – I love NFL and have seen some of the games taking place in the snow while I’ve been watching in New Zealand summer.
you have turned this nature event into a wonderful metaphor for what we experience in life… i often wondered how noah and his fam must have felt inside the ark…knowing they were safe but trapped (or carried) but also knowing that every life outside is going to die…i think it must have been tough
I love this poem (and admire anyone who can write a sestina without drawing attention to the form). Lovely thoughts. I enjoyed this very much.
Well..our greater snow storms in Northern Florida came in 72..77..and 93..
But two inches is what we got..at most…
Well..though..hurricanes are another story..Ivan..Dennis..Katrina..and their friends…
I can certainly relate to the awesome power of nature..through the hurricanes..that so easily stripped away the infrastructure..that IS by product of culture…
Human beings change..when faced with looking in the mirror..instead of outward..@cultural illusion..valuable lessons are those provided by the master..nature..GOD..and ALL th@IS…
And by the way.. happy new year2 ya2!014